Saturday, March 08, 2003
Today was pretty much a wasted day. I watched a few movies, played some computer games, and sight read on the piano for awhile. Oh, and I finally finished "A Tale Of Two Cities". It made me sad.
Apparently I'm not just paranoid about having OCD. I brought it up when I was talking to my mom and she said she has a mild case of it too. It's really annoying, and sometimes totally random - I'll be doing something normal like reading and suddenly I'll feel like if I don't re-read a certain paragraph one of my friends will be in a car accident. Or if I don't arrange piles of stuff in my room a certain way or wear a particular shirt, something bad will happen to me or other people. I also have a tendency to do everything in groups of odd numbers, especially five. Every night I check to see if my alarm clock is set five times, and at school if I look at the clock and the time ends in an even number I have to keep my attention fixed to the time until it changes. If you've never had anything like that happen to you, be glad. It gets on my nerves but if ignore what my mind is telling me, I feel even worse and become really anxious.
Apparently I'm not just paranoid about having OCD. I brought it up when I was talking to my mom and she said she has a mild case of it too. It's really annoying, and sometimes totally random - I'll be doing something normal like reading and suddenly I'll feel like if I don't re-read a certain paragraph one of my friends will be in a car accident. Or if I don't arrange piles of stuff in my room a certain way or wear a particular shirt, something bad will happen to me or other people. I also have a tendency to do everything in groups of odd numbers, especially five. Every night I check to see if my alarm clock is set five times, and at school if I look at the clock and the time ends in an even number I have to keep my attention fixed to the time until it changes. If you've never had anything like that happen to you, be glad. It gets on my nerves but if ignore what my mind is telling me, I feel even worse and become really anxious.
Friday, March 07, 2003
I swear I'm obsessive-compulsive. And then I took this test and scored a 19 (12 & up is "OCD is likely"). Hmmmm...
Wednesday, March 05, 2003
It's so close to the weekend that I can taste it. Well, sort of. It's supposed to be 75 degrees on Friday. That's a huge change from today. Today it was sooo cold. I really do hate Texas weather, it's so dumb. Sometimes I feel like moving to Greece. And on top of the bad weather, I had a ton of homework. Four chapters out of A Tale Of Two Cities and then a whole bunch of chemistry crap that I don't know how to do because Mrs. Watson gave up on us when she taught it and we didn't understand. It's just a bunch of formulas but some of them get really complicated when you plug the numbers in and have to switch them around and stuff. In Algebra, we read about some line related to a parabola called a "latus rectum". Yeah, the class laughed at it at first, but we eventually stopped. Mrs. Brown, however, would break out laughing while we were doing our homework because she thought it was hilarious every time it crossed her mind. And people wonder why school bothers us...
I got the snare exercises for next year's marching season today. I'm not really trying out for snare but at least this way I'll get a head start, and also it's supposed to help me practice rhythms for cymbals, which is what I actually want to play. Who knows. I'm just gonna practice my butt off so when we have the percussion clinic at the end of the year I won't suck, like I did last year. Of course, last year I could barely read music so I've improved quite a lot since then. I won't kill me next year if I'm in pit again but I want to get into the battery so I can have a head start for my senior year.
I got the snare exercises for next year's marching season today. I'm not really trying out for snare but at least this way I'll get a head start, and also it's supposed to help me practice rhythms for cymbals, which is what I actually want to play. Who knows. I'm just gonna practice my butt off so when we have the percussion clinic at the end of the year I won't suck, like I did last year. Of course, last year I could barely read music so I've improved quite a lot since then. I won't kill me next year if I'm in pit again but I want to get into the battery so I can have a head start for my senior year.
Sunday, March 02, 2003
